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That post from Molly Galbraith has really been on my mind the past few weeks. I love the idea of my body not being a before or after picture. It is simply my body. I love that. I have no resolutions around my body for 2017. I am working (and it does take some work) to not be any certain weight for the first time. I do weigh myself every day as data. And honestly since buying the gym, my weight has gone up a bit.

But I trust myself to take care of myself, to eat things that make me feel good, not to binge, and to fuel for my life. I love getting in my workouts. They make me feel good. Strong. That makes me happy. I want my workouts to feel good. I will fuel for that. I want my life not to be centered around food. I will enjoy my food and make good choices...meaning for me choices that don't leave me feeling sick and too full and out of control.

I actually hope I am just the same weight at the end of the year. With out focus, with out intention around weight loss and needing to be smaller, I wonder how the year will go for me.

I know it will be challenging. That pull to lose weight, to be smaller, to "clean up" my diet, to reset, is very fucking strong. It is a voice I have had with me for a very long time. I know I am really happy right now and most days I love my body. Will 5lbs down on the scale change that for me? What if I give up that need to be smaller? To take up less space? To be ripped?

Was anyone else inspired by that post? Anyone else trying to walk away from that pull of needing to be different?
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This is my body. This not a before picture. This is not an after picture. This just happens to be what my body looks like on a random Tuesday in December of 2015 — it's a LIFE picture. This is a body that loves protein and vegetables and queso and ice cream. This is a body that loves bent presses and pull-ups and deadlifts and sleep. This is a body that has been abused with fast food and late nights and stress. This is a body that has been pushed to the brink of leanness in figure competitions and maximum strength in powerlifting meets. This is a body that begged for mercy when it was diagnosed with Hashimoto's and PCOS. This is a body that has been called: - too fat - too thin - too masculine - too strong - too weak - too big - too skinny ...all within the same week. This body has been publicly evaluated, judged, and criticized, and those judgments have been used to determine my level of skill as a coach and a trainer, and my worth as a person, both positively and negatively. Some people say they would "kill to have this body." Others say they would "kill themselves if they had this body." (Yes, unfortunately that's actually a thing humans say to one another.) This is a body that I spent too much time, energy, and mental space wishing would look differently. And today? Today this is a body that is loved, adored, and cherished by the only person whose opinion matters — ME. This is the first year in as long as I can remember that I have made NO resolutions to change the way my body looks. This is a kind of freedom I didn’t think I’d ever experience, and it feels really, really good. #GirlsGoneStrong #GGS #Mindset #Perspective #Autonomy

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It's not all debauchery for me while I am out in Vegas. I love getting up to workout when I am traveling. Not because I "have" to but because I want to. I am typically up early anyway when I am on the west coast so it gives me something to do in those early morning hours when waiting for my husband to wake up. 😁 it also gives me a chance to do some exercises that I normally wouldn't (like leg extensions!!). I typically put together circuits of exercises and hit them 3-5 times through. It's been fun this week. As an added bonus I drink like 5 cups of water in the gym as it is filtered so gets me hydrated for the day and Vegas tap water is gross. So it's a win-win. ... See MoreSee Less

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“He or she who is willing to be the most uncomfortable is not only the bravest but rises the fastest.”
– Brené Brown

Wow. Did I ever need to read that. Its going on my wall for 2017. 🙂
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