I still feel that pull of that voice.
That inner voice that tells me I should be thinner.
When I am at an event that I am looking forward to that voice talks to me.
“It would be better if you were thinner. Other people would like that more. They would like YOU more if you were thinner.”
LIAR. That voice is a fucking liar. Its the one that tells you that you are not good enough as you are, that happiness is over there, never where or who you are right now.
Learn to hear that voice. Then you figure out how best to deal with it. Notice it. Tell it to shut up. Or tune it out. What ever you do don’t listen to it or don’t buy what its telling you.